June 1, 2007...12:24 am
Sisters
Today (Thursday, 5/31) was a blur, just no energy—had to nap for half an hour in office, and then later napped for an hour after meeting with writing group, where we talked about my most recent piece (not my best, embarrassingly). But the day before, Wednesday, was full of energy from moment of waking. Met a writer who reminded me about the community among writers, who actually made me miss my graduate program, just a little—a little a lot. As sucky (forgive ineloquence) as it had been, I had met like-minded people there. We’d talked for hours about our problems with writing, with life, with boys. It had gotten too intense for me at times, this friendship/courtship with two beautiful, fierce, strong-willed women, and there had been so many moments where I could not handle the confusion created by such intensity or why the two meant so much to me, but I recall our bond wistfully, happily, amazedly. I miss A and A, and wish I’d had the strength in the immediate years after the program to have reigned in all my sadnesses and anxieties and given them more support, to have had the right mind to show them a completer portrait of myself and to have seen their own completer portraits. I am sleepy still, and that’s all I can articulate right now. I really miss these women.
(Sculpture by Patrick Purcell.)
8 Comments
June 1, 2007 at 1:38 am
I loved meeting you too, W. You have also brought up a lot of thoughts about connections in the writing universe. I think this is a good omen for sure.
June 1, 2007 at 2:25 am
[...] Sometime later, my alarm went off, and I knew I had to get up–for I had lunch with W. [...]
June 3, 2007 at 2:07 pm
I’m envious, I’ll admit, that you had such a tight-knit group during your MFA experience. I guess I expected that, and maybe it was the nature of my particular program, or the year I was there, or me?, but it never happened. Is it naive of me to say I bet you could reconnect?
It sounds like your meeting with Jade was so inspiring!
June 3, 2007 at 6:08 pm
It being more about the spaces between than within — that sculpture is perfect for this post — and I’ll have to add it to my gallery.
Thanks for showing it!
June 6, 2007 at 6:24 pm
It is good to have sisters. It is good to have them, to share a time of growth, good to just know they are there.
I too am envious.
June 9, 2007 at 4:23 am
GT, you said it, re sharing the time of growth. Chris, I’m glad to have shown you something this time! Nova, I wasn’t expecting any real bond, and was at first very pleasantly surprised, then dysfunctionally attached, and now distantly sad. I hope there will be a way to reconnect someday. Jade, I’m still thinking about your words and your spirit from our meeting up; thank you.
June 11, 2007 at 1:53 am
W–you are awesome. I also parted wishing we lived closer and asking myself, “Dammit–why don’t I move to New York already?!” That City is a part of my soul, despite my many years away–and I feel I am missing out on so much (like friendships!) from being so far away.
March 29, 2008 at 4:53 pm
[...] before I meet one of my lil’ writing groups, I’ll be having lunch at the Pink Pony with a long-lost friend, S, who’s visiting from California with her boyfriend and their son. When we were arranging [...]
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